We are finally all moved in and back online and it is awesome. I love our new house. Silas's room is everything that I pictured it would be and having him sleep in a separate room has made the time between feedings a lot more restful. We are less than a mile from a huge park. Yesterday was gorgeous outside so we went for a walk to the park and back and it felt amazing. I have this amazing feeling of lightness and freedom. I feel like I am fully living again instead of just waiting. I realize that for as long as I can remember I have been waiting for something..graduate high school, get married, have a baby, have a home...I am finally in a place that I am not waiting for something. Of course there are adjustments that we will make to improve our lives but for the most part I am just content right now and that feels amazing.