Wednesday, April 24, 2013

I am wandering more than ever

SPD.  Sensory Processing Disorders.  One of those things you know nothing about unless you go looking.  We knew that Silas was "at-risk" for many things since he was a preemie and sensory issues was one.  It wasn't one that seemed worrisome when looking at possible heart malfunctions or vision problems but it is one that has taken over our lives.  I knew early on that there was something.  something different.  But he's so smart and funny and cute.  There couldn't possibly be anything worng with such a perfect boy.  He is perfect. But not.   He's one he really should be feeding himself.  Why won't he play in the sand.  Why does he cry everytime we wash his hair.  He really needs to have his teeth brushed more. No, he can't wear those socks, they hurt.  No , he needs the soft pants.  That shirt still has a tag.  He's 3, he really should be feeding himself.  Why is he so angry?  There are so many things that you can't even think about because you are just trying to get through the day as painlessly as possible for everyone.  I think I want to share this journey but I am not sure yet.  It's hard.